Post by Sorrum on Jan 12, 2011 3:24:20 GMT -5
Hey guys uh, this is kind of weird for me to do. But, I figured it'd be kind of lame if I just left without saying anything. It's about 2:17 AM as I'm typing this and it's pretty cold right now in my room so, I'm just going to jump into it.
Probably when I was 13, I stumbled across the big flash movie site Newgrounds and watched some of FZ's videos and joined FZB through it. That was my first forum. There, I met some pretty cool guys, like Swim, Miguel, Viruszero, VileMKII, Darc Abyss, Nekogabby, Peytral, Zanji. But I've long since drifted from talking to these people on a regular basis. Peytral introduced me here to ZV, but it wouldn't be later that I'd try to be a regular member.
Without Flamezero releasing any new content though, the forum members became fewer and fewer, and it eventually died. So I had to find a new forum. Fortunately, Peytral and, later Abyss, opened up there own forums where I liked hanging, just posting like an idiot and not worrying too much about irritating one person. But, they died too.
So I tried to come here, to Zero Virus. At first, I didn't like hardly anybody here, and the feeling felt mutual. I wondered how this forum had members who were here to post frequently enough that it didn't die. Looking around, most people have been here for years longer then I have. Some even longer then since I joined FZB about 5 years ago.
So everyone knows each other by now, right? Maybe that's why I just couldn't get along. So I tried a little harder, trying to play the games you were playing, keep up with the series you watched, try to get some sort of acceptance, I guess. I just wanted to fit in, really. But it never came. I kept getting blown off. I bit my lip and held out as long as I could, but then new members would come and be accepted into the inner circle quite quickly.
Today, I had to go through being picked on, kicked, shown little respect, and I even had my name stolen. Fun, right? Well that was fun to everyone else, but not me. It hurt to get made fun of by the people I wanted to be friends with, and even then by Sunny, the only person who seemed to give a crap if I was around.
I'm pretty tired of being made fun of or dissed whenever I do or say something.. I'm giving up on trying to fit in here. I had some good times while I was here, but they're few and far in between and were mostly at someone elses expense. Too few, in fact. Most of my time spent here was thinking: "Why do I even come here?" and I could never come up with a satisfying answer for myself.
In hindsight, I don't know why I bothered writing this. Some of you might not even read it, and even then, it just seems like material you'd all joke with each other over later. Like oh "Sorrum is such a girl lol" or something like that, but that's the kind of people you are, I've come to realize. You know I never really liked that name, maybe it's time I cast it off permanently.
And this is the end of the road for me. From here, I venture into the real world, leaving the online world and consequently all of you behind. Goodbye ZVers, its been an ordeal!
Probably when I was 13, I stumbled across the big flash movie site Newgrounds and watched some of FZ's videos and joined FZB through it. That was my first forum. There, I met some pretty cool guys, like Swim, Miguel, Viruszero, VileMKII, Darc Abyss, Nekogabby, Peytral, Zanji. But I've long since drifted from talking to these people on a regular basis. Peytral introduced me here to ZV, but it wouldn't be later that I'd try to be a regular member.
Without Flamezero releasing any new content though, the forum members became fewer and fewer, and it eventually died. So I had to find a new forum. Fortunately, Peytral and, later Abyss, opened up there own forums where I liked hanging, just posting like an idiot and not worrying too much about irritating one person. But, they died too.
So I tried to come here, to Zero Virus. At first, I didn't like hardly anybody here, and the feeling felt mutual. I wondered how this forum had members who were here to post frequently enough that it didn't die. Looking around, most people have been here for years longer then I have. Some even longer then since I joined FZB about 5 years ago.
So everyone knows each other by now, right? Maybe that's why I just couldn't get along. So I tried a little harder, trying to play the games you were playing, keep up with the series you watched, try to get some sort of acceptance, I guess. I just wanted to fit in, really. But it never came. I kept getting blown off. I bit my lip and held out as long as I could, but then new members would come and be accepted into the inner circle quite quickly.
Today, I had to go through being picked on, kicked, shown little respect, and I even had my name stolen. Fun, right? Well that was fun to everyone else, but not me. It hurt to get made fun of by the people I wanted to be friends with, and even then by Sunny, the only person who seemed to give a crap if I was around.
I'm pretty tired of being made fun of or dissed whenever I do or say something.. I'm giving up on trying to fit in here. I had some good times while I was here, but they're few and far in between and were mostly at someone elses expense. Too few, in fact. Most of my time spent here was thinking: "Why do I even come here?" and I could never come up with a satisfying answer for myself.
In hindsight, I don't know why I bothered writing this. Some of you might not even read it, and even then, it just seems like material you'd all joke with each other over later. Like oh "Sorrum is such a girl lol" or something like that, but that's the kind of people you are, I've come to realize. You know I never really liked that name, maybe it's time I cast it off permanently.
And this is the end of the road for me. From here, I venture into the real world, leaving the online world and consequently all of you behind. Goodbye ZVers, its been an ordeal!
(Moro is my ign for B2W2)
